4.5 months and growing..

when i brought cara home from the hospital, i kept telling myself, this must be a dream. there was no way i was the mother for this beautiful little creature. while i was pregnant i spent the entire 9 months dreading the labor. i read up on every scenario possible and scared myself daily, thinking about the labor. but i never thought past delivery. i imagined what she would look like the moment i saw her, but i never thought past leaving the hospital. i assumed since i helped watch cali when she was young, i knew what to do with babies. i couldn't have been more wrong. i remember the doctor handing cara off to chris, for him to hold her for the first time and he asks "how do i hold her?". i laughed at the time, but honestly, i had no idea how to hold a new born baby. and now 4 and half months later, i am in wonderment. how did we get this far? we brought her home and both looked at eachother like "what the heck do we do with this thing?". and every time i start feeling like an old pro, cara reminds me, I'M NOT. they start growing so fast and learning new things daily. she is currently around 26 inches long and almost 15 lbs. she's doubled in weight since birth and fits in boy clothes better than girls cause of her height..which makes complete sense, seeing as i'm so tall. her blue eyes are still blue and gorgeous at that. she's in a lull from teething, which started at 3 months. we are learning that cara likes to do things early. she's started pulling up her knees when playing on her tummy but isn't quite strong enough to hold her upper body up, so for now, she's not going to far. she LOVES playing with her little friends on her carseat, her doggy, her new blocks from Karen, her monkey rings and her octopus. i'm gonna get her a walker soon so she can explore more. she's already curious of the world and i can't wait to see her grow!

i am attaching a picture of her sleeping cause a.) it's cute and b.) well, it's just so cute!